◑ The inner Dilemma ◐

...Do You Ever Pick Up Your Cell, Look Up For A Contact And Realize That You Are Not Supposed To Call Them Anymore??

Because They Probably Are Not Expecting Or Would Hate To See Your Name Even. 

It's Like A Battle You Have To Fight Everyday With Yourself. 

What Do You Do??-- Hide Your Phone?? Or Sleep To Forget?? Pretend Happy?? Or Just Delete Their Contacts. 

'Coz Lets Get Real , No Matter How Hard You Try To Convince Yourself …One Thing You Cannot Do Is To Delete Them From Your Mind..!!

They Are Taking Away Your Peace And Are Leaving You To Fight With Your Inner Self And Trust The Fact That No Matter How Long The Fight Continues; No Matter Whoever Wins;

It’s Ultimately You Who Lose...

The Worst Part, You Are Hurt; And They Are Gone. Now You Either Keep Telling Your Heart; How Bad And Selfish They Were In The First Place, Which Totally Works. . Or You Wait...

...Wait For Them To Realise!! 

...Wait For Them To Ponder!! 

...Wait For Them To Come Back!!

I Hate To Say It, But Meanwhile All Your Waits They Are Choosing Everyday Not To Be With You , Finding Every Single Reason They Could Be Away And Yet Not Show Themselves As Guilty !!

Now What Do You Do?? 

                   Sleep To Forget!! Sleep Until You Forget!! Sleep Until All Your Thoughts Subsides...

...And Then One Fine Day You Wake Up And Not Have Them On Your Mind. 

Even If You Hear Their Name Or Read It Somewhere; It Won't Hit You. 

It Won't Hit You The Way It Did. .

Perhaps You Will Turn The Neck, Introspect What Has Changed You But That Will Be Just Normal And You Won't Feel Anything; Nothing At All... 

The Day You Feel Nothing Is 

The Day You Start Living Again..!!

This Was One Part; The Other Part Could Be Altogether Different!!

Why Even Bring Yourself Into Such A Situation?? 

Why Let Your Peace Be Away?? 

Yes We Know Its Hard to Go Back to a Place That’s Filled with Inexplicable, Heart Breaking yet Fond Memories and People You Never Wanted to Let Go Off… 

But It’s Totally Worth Going Back Sometimes..

So What Do You Do Now?? 

The Whole Point Is To Find Out The Things That Matter And Hold Onto Them And Fight For Them Relentlessly And Refuse To Let Them Go. . 

Hug Them So Tight That All Your Broken Pieces Sticks Back Together. 

Earn Time; Do Mend The Broken Things For Ignorance Is Not Bliss. 

Apologize. Even When Apologizing, Turn On The Charm. 

I Bet It Works!! 

Even If They Had Reached A Point Where They No Longer Expect Anything From You It Won’t Stop Them From Falling In Love With You All Over Again...

Choosing The Former or the Latter Part Is One’s Own Free Will. 

“Grudges Are For Those Who Insist That They Are Owed Something; Forgiveness, However, Is For Those Who Are Substantial Enough To Move On.”  

People Will Forget What You Said, They Will Forget What You Did, But They Will Never Forget How You Made Them Feel..!! 

In The End Nothing Matters More Than The Peace Of Mind And The Peace Of Inner self!!

"But The Quarrels Make You Stronger

The Fragments Make You Wiser

And Happiness Has Its Own Way Of Taking 

Its Sweet Time

Life Isn’t Always Beautiful But It’s A Beautiful Ride"

Emptiness●๋•

●๋• I Wanted To Pen Down Exactly What I Am Feeling; But Somehow The Text Area Stayed Empty...

●๋• And i Could Not Have Described It Any Better :)

Please don't squeeze me like a lemon :D

Dear LIFE,

You promised me a lot.. 
But what you have given me has surpassed all that u promised ...
I knew that both beauty and ugliness would come my way for nothing comes unalloyed in life..
My life has encompassed both good and bad because u have made me understand only too well that nothing comes unalloyed ... 
When i look back and also regard the present , i realise that the richness of life is in bringing all these experiences together and weaving a beaautiful tapestry of them.. When i try to achieve my goals in haste, u slow me down.. 
u teach me patience, the value of waiting for what is worthwile.. 
u teach me that life is everflowing; like the river ~~~that gets around so many bends and boulders .. 
u also make me flow over and around obstacles and difficulties... The trajectory i choose for myself now is different, on account of the lessons u have taught me. 
By choosing not to identify myself completely with difficulties that come my way, i look beyond them and myself , despite my multiple identities , to the spiritually awakened self that's inside me... You often squeeze me like a lemon and so stress, pain and defeat become part of my experiences,.. u make demands on me .. i was made to take on responsibilty , to care for others and to give something back to u... how ever, when the demands became excessive u have shown me that sometimes i have to be squeezed to give out my best... Looking back, i find that u have enriched me with a gamut of experiences ... u've let me experience the fact that being tested does not mean one has to escape from u... In the course of my life... so many things happened.. but not every happening was significant...   Life u r a twin sister of time... u have impressed upon me that i should do and undertake only work and activities that promote life, not destroy it... Yet may i request u  :  Please dont squeeze me like a lemon. .. i have learnt my lessons and the need to put up a good fight and keep the faith.. i will celebrate u and not waste the opportunity.. and when i whisper a prayer,
i will say 
"thank you life, for the gift of self to me "  

●๋• -Yoohii .." kabhi kabhi..." <( '.' )>

Paper ho par result na aye....●๋•

Classes ho par teacher na aye....●๋•...

Bus me baithe par college na jaye....●๋•

Picnic jaye or wapis hi naa aaye....●๋•

Hafte me 3 din ho or fir sunday aaye....●๋•

sote rhe dinbhr,shaam ko doston ke saath ghumne jae....●๋•

haa bilkul nahi padhe or paas ho jaye....●๋•

sab dost sath rahe or chuttiyan manae....●๋•

Jise chahte h dil se vo apna ho jae....♥ ღ ●๋•

baarish me bheege or masti me jhoome gae....♪ ♫ ●๋•

duniya ko bhool fir se bacche ban jae....●๋•

bheed se dooor ek alag duniya banae....●๋•

saari zindagi bas yu hi kat jae...◤●๋•

Kash ye saare sapne sach ho jye...◈◈●๋•

Kbi kbi dil chahta h bas kuch esa ho jaye.. .. ♥ ●๋•

Kbi kbi dil chahta h bas kuch esa ho jaye.. .. ♥ ●๋•

●๋• "A BEST FRIEND Will Not Forget About You" ●๋•

....There had been so many and yet there are going to be many many more :) .. but this lesson by you mum, will be remembered by me for lifetime !! The way you elucidated today left a profound impact on me , i must tell you !! ... 

" dost -- hahahaha :D :D ;  sachcha dost dil se juda hua hota hain !!! you need not to throw parties for them... u dont have to hang out very often ...you dont evn need to talk to each other daily.. There is a bond that connects you !!! ...  if he/she is your friend... he/she will be your friend no matter - who you are ...where you are ..what you are!! ...'coz tum dil se jude hue hote ho!!! ... 

you just need to care for those ppl.. who really cares for you.. and let not others bother you at all !!!.. you should'nt be running behind ppl...begging them to stay in your life.!! agar koi tera dost hain toh voh tere saath rahega chahe kuch bhi ho jaaye!!!  

... forget what ppl thinks of you... 

Don't you rememeber that donkey story ... yes! the donkey one... jisme jab aadmi gadhe ke saath chal raha tha.. tab logo ne kuch bola... jab vo aadmi ghadhe ke upar baithke chalne laga..tab bhi logo ne bola... aur jab vo aadmi ; ghadhe ko apne upar bitha ke chalne laga... tab bhi logo ne kuch na kuch bola.....!!! c ppl are like this... :/ .. they are fickle minded ..!!  ... they'll always have something or the other to say... u do anything !! ...

just look around.. and love ppl... who truly loves you...  

....you may have empty pockets ; you may not party like others... you may lose friends ; oh! i should correct myself... you may lose 'fair weather friends' l.. if you dont frequently join their social gathering ...!!! ... SO what??? ... if you think.. agar yeh tere dost hain...to i am afraid.. U r wrong.... coz A best friend will stand by you through ur thick and thin ... no matter what!!! i repeat NO MATTER WHAT... whether you are rich or poor... whether you are studious or dumb...whether you are 'you' or you are not ...!!! he/she WILL BE YOUR FRIEND...AGAR VOH DIL SE JUDA HAIN... and trust me; value only such type of friends in your life!! ... rest are ppl... just ppl ...!!!"

                        i have read many friendship lines...many quotes... many slogans... ... but none could beat this one - the one you used to sum up our conversation...

" A FRIEND IN NEED IS A FRIEND INDEED " ...!! :)

The 'Likes' Saga...

The saga of 'likes' lies in here Some hit the button 'coz of fear notions, superstitions, myths and old belief like in one second if you wish to avoid the grief...

Quite a few do in ignorance And they are often loved for this innocence But when they learn that they have hit it Oh! They sit in dilemma whether to 'let it be or unlike it'...

Most of them do it genuinely,knowingly These are your pals who would even comment amusingly They would admire you for what you post And without giving courtesy, on their wall re-post...

Some of them are freaks- seeking attention
They would like every other post, with clear intention
Intention of appearing in newsfeed all the time
Oh! Believe me these are the ones most irritating kind...

Now the last but not the least are those people Who literally thinks, hitting like is something illegal Their ego won't let them like even a single post Fish! These confused sperms are in a fear of letting themselves exposed...

Whatever it is, the likes still do plays a big role 

And to not get affected by it, is beyond our control 

The developer of it must surely be crowned 

Hoping anticipately in near future, an 'unlike option' to be around 

For now, you don't have it and so you are bound 

To hit a like, coz on you, I can count...

A Sonneteer's Saga...

The groom kissed the bride :* and they versed 'I DO' while i was sneakingly seeing the happy pair from the main door And with weeping eyes, made my way to a nearby liquor store Bidding the bride-My best friend; a final adieu A friendship that I behold fondest and true To be there as her 'best-man' I was standing for But the groom hated me, oh! Complaining is now a bore for I was being adjudged having wrong intentions in his view Drunken now I am , lamenting the past That He did not care to listen and she failed to defend And on a Boulevard of broken promises and knots I recall all what I have been through and surpassed Trying to mend the friendship and avoid the bitter end But I guess the silence saga will only unfurl in 3 dots...

"Coz She Is A Different Girl..."

It's a saga of one late chilly night The guy was unable to keep her love away from his sight That night romanticism was at its peak And for the first time , he threw his books and was a lover from a study freak! He had in his veins , that angel girl And tears came out of his eyes, like a pearl but the girl was a stranger ,he fell in love at first sight And so he decided , to not subdue, and let his feelings cite... Oh!! he decided to write... But what to write , to an unknown girl Who was neither his acquaintance nor a pal Life is short. A random thought came; Wait he must not; and express to explain... consulted his sis , so that his efforts don't go in vain In that, his feelings he wrote and asked her to befriend!! Seen! Seen! Seen! And he took more and more caffeine.. Inexplicably the girl didn't reply Neither a lie nor a deny!! Sister consoled him and said -

"she is a girl , its a girl psychology! May be she is afraid for an apology! You wait and wait and be hopeful.. Surely she must be thoughtful.. And might reply you fruitful..!!" Days passed by , nights in oblivion Silently asking the recipient- "Am I not worth even a reply?? If not yes, atleast deny! Don't let me be unsure about you No explanations , just words few" But his voice didn't reach her And he was gloomy 'coz valentine's day was near She didn't reply yet , unable to read her mind, A dilemma state, for answers were nowhere to find He asked his sis again -why she is so unconcern?? And she just replied- 'coz she's a different girl' Alas!!! Unlike past years, this year he thought he would be with his mate But he doesn't know what's in his fate It's really no big secret that he have the biggest crush. everybody knows somehow that he might be in love. He wants to scream to the world To let her know To climb a cliff and let his voice echo For now, he'll be waiting patiently 

for that day when they'll be together that precious moment in time when she'll say, 

"it's you that I want to be with forever" He longs for her reply and is lost in thoughts... Just to decipher her silence saga that is hidden in 3 dots...

Stroll Mentations ...

Strolling Down The Memory Lane

She Finds Something To Blame

A Picturesque Runs Through Her Mind

And Again And Again Makes Her Remind

The Synchronicity Of The Events At That Park

And She Asked Me Why Do Dogs Bark??

I Was Mum Looking At My Chum

And Asked Her Why She Is So Unstrung

She Began Telling , And I Was All Open Ears

And When She Ended I Was Weeping In Tears

On My Way Back Home, I Decided To Let The World Know

And So Have A Look , I've Got You Some Reality Check To Show

                                              

Ever Noticed Two Puppies And Two Dogs Fighting... ?? 

Well Strolling Gives A Way To Look At Such Things...

And Truly That Day My Friend Made An Observation Which On Being Revealed To Me Left Me Totally Mesmerized .. 

The Synchronicity Of The Subject Doesnt Lies In Their Fighting - But The Reason Of Fighting!!

Puppies Were Fighting For A Piece Of Food Silently Without Barking .. While The Big Dogs Were Barking , Howling, Combating For No Reason Whatsoever...

This Gave An Insight To Her To Find Out A Deeper Connection Of The People Who Think High Of Themselves And Vice Versa.

She Figured Out - Puppies Who Have A Reason To Fight For , Are Like Kids, Carefree, Jolly In Nature, Cuddling With No Intention Of Dominance , Silently Personifying The Lil Kids Who Are Free From Any Ego's , Attitudes, Vices...

On The Other Hand The Big Dogs Personified The Grown Ups.. Who Have Nothing To Fight For, Yet They Bark Just To Subdue And Show Their Dominance Over Each Other, To Possess That Attitude Which Aint Worthwihile , To Think High Of Themselves...To Have Stereotypes Of Age, Sex, Color, Class, Or Religion.

She Was Remorseful 'Coz She Was Just Haunted By The Reality . 

A Bitter Reality Which She Wanted To Change. 

Dalai Lama's Words Stucked Into Her Mind -

Look At Children. Of Course They May Quarrel, 

But Generally Speaking They Do Not Harbor ILL Feelings As Much Or As Long As Adults Do. 

Most Adults Have The Advantage Of Education Over Children, But What Is The Use Of An Education If They Show A Big Smile While Hiding Negative Feelings Deep Inside? 

Children Don't Usually Act In Such A Manner. If They Feel Angry With Someone, They Express It, And Then It Is Finished. 

They Can Still Play With That Person The Following Day. 

But These Grown Ups..Arrghhh.. When Will They Understand This That It's Never Too Late To Have A Happy Childhood ...

And With This Last Thought - “For In Every Adult There Dwells The Child That Was, And In Every Child There Lies The Adult That Will Be.” ...

Her Eyes Dozed Off And She Goes In To Oblivion Having A Picturesque Of Those Two Puppies !!

And Me ... Yes.. I Found A Saga In Just That Brief Yet Deep Observation Of Her's... May Be Through This It Will Unfurl And Laments The Grown-Ups...